My first week at uni and Advice15:38
Hey guys, I hope you're all doing well! :)
I've mentioned quite a lot on my blog that i'm off to University soon and here I am! I moved in on Monday, freshers week didn't start till Wednesday and my induction was on Friday. To some of you that will make no sense at all but basically partying started from Wednesday onwards and I was inducted on Friday. I haven't had any actual lessons yet but there's so much to say about this week that I just needed to make a post about it.
Okay so, I moved in on Monday, it was pretty stressful. I literally packed on the day and moving everything from one place to another is just so stressful! I was panicking that I was going to forget something but it went quite smooth so i'm pleased with that. When my family said bye to me that night, everything just felt weird. I was happy because I was here after months of looking forward to it but I also had this weird feeling as well.
On Tuesday I woke up and I thought to myself that I need to start adjusting to this type of life, I wanted to go check out the university but since it took me forever to get ready I just went shopping. Now i'm from Birmingham and Birmingham has an amazing shopping centre so to come from that to this was a little bit shocking. I didn't like the city centre but I thought oh well. I didn't eat properly that night and this is something that became consistent. I also became very homesick, I started crying and feeling low already and this something I didn't expect at all but again I shrugged it off because I thought that it would pass.
Wednesday I went to check out the university. Wednesday was move in day for many people who chose for university accommodation so I was walking down the road I felt very intimidated. I know this sounds silly but everyone was with someone and I was on my own in a new city and this was the first time I was making the trip to university so I was very anxious and scared and intimidated. When I got back to my accommodation I was so glad to be back, I really REALLY hated being outside. To make matters worse, freshers night was starting on that night. Now I originally thought it would be starting on Thursday so I was panicking when I found out it wasn't. Now freshers week is run by university accommodation and i'm in private accommodation so what I needed to do was join in with another hall. Now that bit was easy as I knew which hall I wanted to go with but the problem was that this hall didn't inform any of the students what time everything will be starting so I had to contact them through Facebook and found out. When I arrived there everyone seemed to know each other and seemed to be getting on very well and I just felt like the odd one out. I spoke to a member of the hall committee and they gave me a wristband and one of the freshers tee and then I introduced myself to some girls and they are so lovely! I'm so glad that I met them! Now this night was a new experience to me, I don't drink yet I was surrounded by people drinking now that's completely fine but what I hated was the fact that they sprayed beer over everyone. We then moved to the university club and this was the part I enjoyed, I loved the girls I was dancing with, the music was great and the atmosphere was amazing! So even though I was stressing that night over everything, it turned out to be good.
I woke up on Thursday feeling very anxious and worried again. I was very anxious as to what time I should meet the girls I met last night but also I had to go get some shopping bits. Now for this night, freshers were heading out to a nightclub in town but were having pre-drinks in the hall before. I didn't bring any ID with me so even though I could get into the student club, I couldn't get into the town club so I told my new friends and they said it's completely fine and told me to come to the pre-drinks as many of them aren't going out anyways. Pre-drinks made me anxious because we were meeting new people in the accommodation though everyone seemed very nice after. We headed down to the common room and the same thing happened with drinking and beer spraying and all that stuff. Then some of my friends went to the club while others stayed and we just went back to their halls and chilled out there. I loved this night because just chilling and talking to new people was a nice thing to do, there was also a girl there who was in the same boat as me as she lived in private accommodation too so that was nice and her boyfriend was super nice too.
Friday it was induction day and again I was stressed and anxious over meeting new people. I got to the building fine because I checked it out on Wednesday, I did get a little lost but someone did help me. When I got into the building, everyone I talked to was so nice. I met this girl who is doing the same course as me and me and her have identical timetables and i'm so glad i'm with her because she's so nice. Then I also found another girl with an identical timetable and she was lovely too. I met someone else and she was super nice but we had different timetables. We talked to each other during our lunch break the most and it was nice, it was really calm and I felt relaxed and I loved it. After this I had to go pick up my ID card, luckily I met a girl who was doing the same and she helped me to walk to the building and then also walked home with me. She lives near to me, I got her number and she told me we could walk to class together. This was another freshers night but at the student club again so I was able to get in. We had pre-drinks again but the people there was so much more relaxed and more easy to talk to. I was the most calm out of all the nights then. The student club wasn't fun as it was not my type of music so we did leave quite early but I still enjoyed myself.
Saturday I went home and spent the rest of the weekend there. I was so glad to be back at home as I cried nearly everyday and missed it a lot.
Now i'm missing home a lot and during the summer holidays I was suffering from depression and anxiety and I think by starting something new and moving away hasn't helped it at all. At the moment I feel like I just want to go back home and just catch the train everyday to my university. I was thinking about taking a gap year but thought that wouldn't actually help as it wouldn't make me any more independent. So I need your advice. I know by staying here i'm throwing myself deeper and deeper into depression as there's a lot of loneliness here so i''m really confused. I get anxious over every little thing and it's something I can't control so I would really appreciate your advice. Do I just stick it out or should I go back home? Please let me know in the comments as anything would be helpful right now.
Thanks for reading :)